I wanna grow old with you....

I wanna grow old with you

What?? A blog entry not about my BOOBS??? That's correct! This entry I am dedicating to my boyfriend Brian. Today is our two year anniversary. I want to share with everyone how lucky I am to have such an amazing guy in my life. I have definitely had my fair share of assholes in my life and have never really knew what a decent relationship was until i started one with Brian. I can honestly tell you that one day I will marry this man! People who know me personally know how much I fear commitment and would never in a million years plan my life out so far in advance. So when I say that Brian is "the one" I am absolutely positive about it! Best thing about it, we are on the exact same page as each other. We talk about having children, getting married and of course what the above picture says "Growing old Together" Brian and I were friends before we started dating,

Just BFFS at this point

he helped me out in 2008 when I was going through the hardest time of my life (at that time). He was my rock, and has never stopped being that rock til this day. Starting 2 years ago when it rained it poured for me and one after another the storms got worse and worse. It all started in September 2008 when I made some very bad decisions in my life, Brian was there as a friend to keep me going and keep me sane. Once that storm had began clearing up October 2008 my mother was diagnosed with Stage IV triple negative breast cancer with mets to her pancreas. they gave her a prognosis of 2 years to live. Brian was there by my side 24/7, he was my shoulder to cry on. As time went on I started to fall for him, mind you I told him that we would always be "just friends", One January morning I opened up my eyes and realized that it was way more than that. We started dating January 11th 2009. January 19th Brian's mother was diagnosed with Stage I breast cancer. Luckily they found her lump early and started her on treatment as soon as possible. On january 29th I found a lump on my own breast, visible to the eye but was unable to be picked up by U/S? go figure... had to have a BX and thankfully was benign. While our mothers were going through treatments were shared a bond between each other that most young couples could not. We both could relate when both our mothers lost their hair, got sick from chemo and together we both nervously had to await PET Scans,  CT Scans, MRI results AND CA27-29 LEVELS. Brian's mother was incredibly sick around this time but being the amazing son he is he would drive her to her Chemo appts and help her out in anyway he possibly could. Brian's mother finished her radition treatments in Septmber 2009 but was still struggling with her chemo. All of these trial and tribulations made our relationship incredibly stronger. in  July of 2009 We decided to sign up for the Susan G Koman  Phildelphia 3DAy for the Cure. We did this to honor our mothers who at the time wanted to do this but were unable to due to on going cancer treatments.

2009 3DAY
Walking for our Mothers

In the time frame of only 3 months Brian and I had raised a little under $14,000.00 between the 2 of us! Unfortunately the same day The 2009 3DAy  for the cure started was the first day of my mothers decline (she was hospitalized on day1). By luck they had canceled the 1st 2 days of the walk due to a double noreasten, never in history had a 3Day been cancelled. I was able to be by my mothers bed side at the hospital with Brian right next to me for support. Again when it rains it pours it had only been a year since they had diagnosed my mother and she was now fading away, day by day. On January 9th 2010  after being in and out of the hospital multiple times, my mother was put on hospice and on February 11th 2010 my mother took her last breath of air as I said goodbye to her. Again Brian was by my side through it all. February 18th 2010 Brian's mom finished her Chemo treatments, the same day as my mothers funeral. Brian's mother is coming up on being 1 year Cancer free and is doing absolutely unbelievable!

Brian and I decided from that moment on we would walk until PINK was just a color again. WE signed up for Octobers 2010 3Day for the cure and again raised $11,000.00! Totaling all together $24,911.00 in 2 years, to help with breast cancer research.

2010 Philadelphia 3DAY 

One thing I can not forget to add is how great he is with my 7 year old son Liam, Liam absolutely adores him and sometimes I think Brian may like Liam more than he likes me ....just kidden. He thinks of Liam as his own child and honestly he could pass for Liam's dad lol because they look alike! They have boys days, boys clubs , boys haircuts, build legos, draw and watch sports together. And every night we both read a book to Liam and Brian always gives him a piggy back even if his back hurts like hell. Liam tells me that Brian is his best friend! If you are a single mom you can relate this is one of the things you hope for you child to say about the person you are with. I am so happy how close the two of them are and to be honest not going to lie but I even get jealous a bit (sometimes I am just chopped liver) 

Halloween 2010

My boys

Ok so this is getting kind of long lol so I will try to close it up but To back track for just a minute and to talk about my Boobs for a second (ok I lied) BRian was also the one who came with me when I got my results of being BRCA positive, he would hold me every night that I would burst out in tears because of my mother, upcoming surgery or what ever else was emotionally hurting me. Brian was there every day, worked crazy hours so he would have money put aside for when I had to have surgery, By my side through both my surgeries took care of me , made me meals, took care of Liam, has gone to every one of my surgeon's appts and driven me where ever (since I still can't drive ugh) and even showered me when I could not.  And through it all we have stuck together, through thick and thin good bad and ugly. I feel we have gone through more things in the last 2 years than some people go through in a life time! Our latest step in life is looking for a real house, no longer renting an apartment together, don't want to jinx anything but, we did put in a bid on a beautiful house this weekend! (keep your fingers crossed) We deserve a happy ending :) I love you Brian Daniel Dailey and I can't wait to grow old with you! Happy anniversary babe with many more to come! 

First ever family picture
November 2011